I just watched an interview on much music with Chad.

How you remind me is played more times in North America than any other song has been.Broke the Record.

It s played every 3.5 minutes.......pretty fucken amazing.

Chad says "the funny thing is that the song is longer than 3.5 minutes so its a continues flow of how you remind me".

So thats pretty cool

Nickelback is the only excitement i have in my life.....kinda sad

But they are the best band.


i was happy

for the first time in a long long time i can say i was truly happy

lasted like 2hrs

then it was snatched away

now im most likely on my way home

unless she changes her mind

How should i feel right now?

sad, angry, disapointed, dejected, lost, fine?

what are all of those together?

blended?- does that work?

my life has been thrown in a blender and choppped untill it no longer resembles what it once was. im a goo----color? grey

how can goo turn back to solid matter? can that happen?

im a destined for nothingness?



~I think "im" alone in the universe tonight~

if i could cry i would--but im dry of tears--i tire of this...thing that is me

must change

followed her like a lost puppy- now once again im lost who to follow?

o you(god) where are you leading me?

thought so--no clue eh

well thanx for the help

%she would be much better if i had never met her%
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    default-the new song-(i really like it)


Saturday morning my mom calls,

I can hear the tension in her voice as she says there has been a "horrible accident"
My heart skips a beet and my mind wonders through the possibilitys,i was scared and sadly intrigued.

on friday night there was an accident, same place as the previous weekend. This accident took out 2 powerpoles, and injured 4 boys, killing one of them. She sadly told me the victims, i new them all, went to school with them all. Kevin Issel, Keith Webber, Craig Cochraine, Wade McCormick. Me and Keith sat together for the better part of grade 10, he is so funny im glad he is ok, i dont know Kevin and Craig as well but they were also great guys they,are ok aswell

Wade, my first friend in melville.
Great Guy cant say a bad thing about him
his locker was beside mine for all of grade 9, we sat togethr in computers english and math, we were partners for most of gym( we bigger guys have to stick together)
i went over to house house met his family and hung out with him

wade was the first melville kid to talk to me and get to know me

now wade is dead

i am in disbelieve

i will never see him again

i have never dealt with death before, now i have

i feel empty

and wade and i werent even close anymore, just aquintances remembering the good times

he is a guy i will never forget

Thanks Wade

I hope u are in a better place man
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    sad sad



got back this morning me and lala sped like the whole way

so give me a call
im going for cofee right now, but i have no plans for tonight
if im not home leave a message please


My Fans


For all of my adoring fans, i will be making a special visit to a town called melville.
I will be there for the dates of 8,9,10,11,12 of november that is.

should be fun
im catching a ride home with valerie early thursday morning.i will be there that afternoon.

looking forword to that

and dont get your hopes up(right)
but i should be home over xmas break.

maybe the 26th till the 3rd
or maybe even xmas eve ill see what i can swing
got work crap

But i guess we will see
I got the nickelback cd The State now also
fuck they rock

i saw them on much spotlight today
they are so cool
man on man when i see them it will be an experience
cant wait


o hockey tonight
wish me luck
  • Current Music
    nickelback-Cowboy Hat

Im back


that was faster than anticipated, first no computer for 3 mths, done in 3 days.
my life is back!!!

sad eh?

i still have 2 chances to make a team, might be defence though, could be fun
at laest its ice time
if i mkae the team i will have played with half this league
funny shit

well gotta go
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    relieved relieved

(no subject)

for the life of me
i cant even see
what youve done to me
who you wanna be

is this someone else?
if so who sings that?

its in my head but i cant place it

Who wins and for what eh?


well.......who wins
we are told that good always beats evil
but that cant be true, with my theory of the natural balance it would be up in the air who one and that would mean good had/has as much a chance of losing as evil.

but maybe good has already one, right like this world is such a happy place
more likely maybe evil won and we are living in its world till the game restarts

so what would they win,
since we are just the game board no point battling over us.
maybe they battle to see who lives in heaven for a few years, descides who controls heaven or hell.if thats the case then neither is really good or evil, they just get forced into the part/Its tehre job till they win. or lose

my thoughts would have made me a heretic
these are all just ramblings

The Game

So i was talking to vanessa and came up with this analegy

So theirs like this pool of strong souls
And the devil and God had a draft, like hockey
they both had their info on each soul, decided who would be best suited for their team
then they picked them in rounds just like hockey
these souls were drafted to the army in away, onside good one evil
At different times through mans history, these souls are born into human life, and must battle, good versus evil.
And the rest of us are free agents
The devil is like the last place team, he has to go out and beg the players(us) to come to his team ofer them stuff in return, give them a big signing bonus.

God just sits back, he is the good team that everyone wants to play for, he waits for the players to come to him.Then he sighns them

These 2 teams battle every few years
the good team versus the bad team
a big game for our masters to play
we are the pieces, the puppets the pawns.

But hey what can i say?
its fun eh?

So when the game ends we may never know, could be tomorrow could be never
wonder what happends when the game gets borring?

Thats just an interesting thought